Shock marriage proposal in EastEnders
A source said: "Jay has been trying his best to hold it together ever since he saw his step-brother Ben killing Heather.
"And it's only been Abi and their relationship that has kept him from going over the edge.
"He's been able to be normal around her and live his life as best as he can, so the thought of her going off to study fills him with dread.
"He's happy for her because it's an amazing opportunity but he doesn't want to lose her."